Sunday, October 28, 2012

Lay Me Down

With this heart open wide
From the depths from the heights
I will bring a sacrifice
With these hands lifted high
Hear  my song
Hear my cry
I will bring a sacrifice
I will bring a sacrifice

Chorus:
I lay me down I’m not my own
I belong to you alone
Lay me down
Lay me down
Hand on my heart
 This much is true
There’s no life apart from you
Lay me down
Lay me down Oh oh oh
Lay me down
Lay me down

Letting go of my pride
Giving up all my rights
Take this life and let it shineTake this life and let it shine

Bridge:
It will be my joy to say
Your will
Your way
It will be my joy to say
Your will
Your way always(x3)


Every Monday morning, the  staff of Morrison Academy gather for devotions. We recently sang this Chris Tomlin song. The words, for me, describe my journey the last three months.

I started this school year knowing it would be difficult, but  I was confident in my abilities. I could handle it. Not too many days passed before reality set in. I found myself feeling like I had to prove to everyone that I was a good teacher; that I deserved to be here.

I was constantly stressed.  I strived. I persevered. I prayed. 

Yet, I continued to feel as if everyone around me was looking over my shoulder. It was the world against one- me.

 One day, after being less than perfect, I collapsed, emotionally. I just couldn't go on. So sitting at my kitchen table, I gave it all up.  I took my pride and gave it over to God. I instantly felt peace wash over me.

God also revealed to me that it was He, not any human, or any thing that I had done, that brought me to Taiwan. He, alone, according to His will. Wow! That simple thought released me from the prison I, alone, had erected. In a matter of seconds, my joy returned.

 
Letting go of my pride.
Giving up all my rights
Take this life and let it shine.
 
All my striving. All my worrying. It did nothing for me, or for anyone else.
 
My joy-- Your Will! Your Way!
 
I will shine when I am full of God, not myself!
 
I prayed God would change my situation. Instead, He changed me!

1 comment:

  1. So happy to read this! God is so amazing and so good to give us what we need. And I know you are an amazing teacher! I can't wait to read more about what God is going to do in your lives. We love you and miss you bunches!

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